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9:30:00 AM
What exactly LOVE is ??
it's still confusing n troubling my mind~
Does an everlasting love n unbreakable love exist in this world ?
maybe it does, but i think very rarely
n may not happened in my life
i think LOVE just like a war, easy to begin but hard to ends
u take a minute to falling in love, but u need a lifetime to forget all about it~
Some people said that LOVE was such a simple thing, but really~ i never ever think so... ....
Sometime LOVE can make u feel that having all of the world,
Sometime LOVE just make u feeling tired n miserable.
Is it true that LOVE will be blanded by the time?
when u haven't got it, u will give all ur effort to belong it
love, dote, miss, cherish all around u
those mushy words, full of caring, understanding, romantic moments,
it seems that walk in ur life as air
In the beginning, LOVE appears by loving each other
wanna live together till the end of time
at last, LOVE become to a word of sympathy ??
the reasons that let us together was becoz we have been long relationship (so pity to ends it), becoz u cry in front of me (feel guilty) becoz u can't live without me (but not me) or ...... .....
that's not the real reasons of LOVE
it's been 2 years since I was 19th
that was a relationship that i can't forget until now~
An unstatus relationship,, ,,, ,,,,
becoz,, ,, he already have a gf but she worked in spore
together with him i just feel like we have been known each other for many years
he said he had the feeling too~
i know he have a gf but in a complicated
her gf rarely contact him since she was in spore
but i just purely treat him as a friend n never think so much too besides be a friend
he began to contact me,caring me
more than a friend
together with him just can be ur ownself
no need to act cute, act feminime, no need to make up too =))
he was different than other guys i ever met before
his porridge and herbaL tea still warming my heart
especially, when i was sick
Maybe we have no fate to be together
he said his gf wanna come back again to him
crying n beg for him for many times. wanna resign from her work ,back to here n he become more confused
I can't be selfish too~
i think his gf more need him than me
in other way i think if i'm his gf i will very hurt to see my own bf have another girl
besides they already been 7 years relationship
i begin to feel sympathy of her
at last, i give up him
i told him back to his gf
i ask him for make a decision between me n her
hmm,, but i never thought that
he ended our relationship just by a short message
''u must take care of urself, we still can be a friend
if u have any problem can contact me on ".
.... .... ....
that day i realise that i definitely not important at all
i just need a clearly reason, face to face told me what his decision
n i will willingly accept it, coz i have prepare myself for the worse
but,, ,,,
although it was short time, just 2 months unstatus love
but it hurting me until now
sometimes, this heart feels very hurt when suddenly remind it all
everything is so clearly in my mind
everything he done, every word he said
just like happened yesterday~~ i really hurt deeply
he ever told me, he unsure that back again with his gf
was a reason of LOVE or just SYMPATHY
but i told him
u must LOVE her, just because LOVE u can give her happiness
if SYMPATHY, u will hurt her more
dun let me sacrifice all of this but both of u can't got a happy ending
maybe it was not a right time for us to met
A RIGHT MAN MUST APPEAR IN A RIGHT TIME TOO~
one day we will get our own happiness
i know dat he was blessful now
seeing their photos in net, smile happily
hmm, i think it contented... ...
just let it be a part of my life
that i must going through~
hope dat next one will be better~
GOD always bless for me
must get away from this feeling~~~
seek for my own HAPPINESS
Tomorrow will be better !!! =)))
Alicia*Ng
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